Thoughts About You

You make me lose myself in music
because the notes sound like your voice

they haunt me when i sleep
i chase my dreams like fireflies
knowing i'll think of you for centuries

I turn the speakers up too loud
the hiss winds with the four songs i listen to
they're on repeat
and they're all about you

we are poisoned by our youth
our youth that kills us slowly
someday we'll be legends
remember these days
they're all we have

flaunt me among the dancing crowds
slit my throat with kisses
pull me asunder with licks of leather
this isn't just a dream anymore

we are the warriors of our own lives
fight and flight and gliding into sunrises
gazing at the stars

we prove ourselves daily
we shall ascend to the throne 

here we are, here we are
step follows step
and we're waltzing in the moonlight

(c) 2014

Dearest, You Captivate Me

this is it

the golden age

walking alone with my head in the clouds

running into your arms

done hiding from the world

you've captured me

in perfect synchronicity 

my hands dance

picking out a pattern

a song for the ages

shaped by lips that could hail the gods

i don't expect eternity 

we are but mortals

as i walk on

in the dark and filled with sighs

it's time to run

run with me

this race is possibility

you've captivated me

tomorrow is a day of thoughtful tears

shining in the rising sun

your eyes burn

i see you

it's like a window to my soul

bare and stark and full of demons

chasing my tail and wondering

thirty days of waiting

ten more of hope

i wonder

if you'll run with me

is there any chance

i could forget you

if i ever wanted to,

in the darkness filled with sighs

out by the shore

though...

when i close my eyes

all i see is a smile

i'm running

pale and cold in the ghostly light

of myriad stars above our heads

laughter and fears

i had lost my way

i never want to say

that the dreams i have are impossible

and they wouldn't be

you make me want to dance

and i can love the sound of the rain

with your hand in mine

i would never fall down

and these sentiments fall from pale lips

in a dark world

but your eyes

and the candyfloss hair

and we are shadows

in this cold and bitter night

the steady burst of life

light, and dreaming whispers in the dimness

sentiments i dare not voice

for i cannot find the words

but i'm running

come with me?

(c) 2014

One Good Reason

you say that you'd love to kiss me
hold me, wake beside me
i want to run away with you
give me one good reason to trust you
i don't expect the world
it's been a long time since i let go

i don't want to live anymore
i haven't for a long, long time
maybe this stone cold girl needs fire
i'm gonna grab you close
i'm gonna run away

but don't fuck with my love
don't fuck with my soul
it's empty and sinful
it's filled with pain enough for an army
i never intended for you to take me
not like this

give me darkness
i want to be on my own
keep me company in the rain
the droplets are red
none of us are saints
don't these scars speak ill of us all?

you say that you'd love to kiss me
hold me, wake beside me
i want to run away with you
give me one good reason to trust you
i don't expect the world
it's been a long time since i let go

i met you early in the year
when the fog was cold
and the wind made me want to disappear
maybe we never should have danced
maybe we never should have laughed

but don't fuck with my love
don't fuck with my soul
it's black enough as it is
it's filled with pain enough for an army
maybe there's something here
something more
i don't know

these smiles are porcelain and silver
glimmering softly with foolish hope
would that i could know the future
before i tried again
my resting place is in my own soul
i'm on fire
but i'm so cold

just hold me in your arms
sway to the music and blink out of existence
i don't want to keep going
but i don't want to die
enfold me close, and let me lean on you
gods know i need someone to trust
i'm standing in the rain
the drops are red

but don't fuck with my love
don't fuck with my soul
it's black enough as it is
it's filled with hope enough to kill me
maybe there's something here
something more
i don't know
it's raining and i'm looking up
i can see you in the clouds



(c) 2014