Sunday, June 8, 2014

Trying So Hard

i'm trying so hard
not to fall in love
but the hand print on my heart
from where you held on so hard
i love you anyway
my mind is telling me no
to put these feelings away
in that little gray box in the corner of my labyrinth
but the hand print on my heart
from where you held on so hard
from where you ripped away
and found solace in the bosom of another
it's bleeding drops and rivers
and your name
still tastes so sweet on my tongue
and your eyes
still trace patterns on my skin
and your voice
still makes me shiver with hopeless longing
i'm trying so hard
not to fall in love
but it's too late
and always has been



(c) 2014

Thursday, June 5, 2014

I'm Going Down

i'm not going to hide my face in shame
my philosophies are my own
my pain shapes my heart into a knot
my soul is torn and my body is bruised
but i'm not going to let go
i'm not going to let go
i'm not going to let the actions of others shape me
i'm not going to let myself fall apart
if i tell you the truth, remember i'm lying
when i close my eyes and tell you to go
i want you to stay
to help me cry alone in this imperfect world
i'm not going to hide my scars from your eyes
i'm going down fighting
spiraling in this joyride to hell
and i'm falling apart in the process
my heartbeat cracking its rhythm to the panic in my mind
and you haven't seen the best of me
but you haven't seen the worst
my soul is broken, my heart is shattered
my emotions are locked away
but i'm not going to let go
i'm going down fighting
travelling down my highway to hell
paving the road in blood and agony
but damn me if i sleep through my life
i won't give up
i'm going down fighting
blisters on my hands and tears in my eyes
if i tell you the truth, remember i'm lying
when i tell you to go, i want you to stay
and help me chase my nightmares
let's go down fighting
spiraling in this joyride to hell
let's kiss the world goodbye and
at the same time say hello
god damn if i ever let go
i'm on my highway to hell
and i'm going down fighting
and i'm breaking apart in the atmosphere
and i'm out of control
and you taste like the dreams i shattered
and the hearts i've broken
and i've left so many scars
and my soul is broken, my heart is shattered
i'm going down
i'm burning up
i'm giving in
to rage and sin
let's kiss the world goodbye
but i'm not going to let go
i'm going down fighting
with you beside me
and i've left so many scars
and i've broken down
and i've fought my way home
and i've cried rivers
and i've got you
i'm going down
i'm burning up
i'm giving in
to rage and sin
with you beside me


(c) 2014